20110708

now ya see it.....now you don't

up regulation, down regulation.  an apothecary friend of mine told me about this.  it's so confusing, and the opposite of what you'd expect, but here - bear with:

it's like when someone snaps a photo of you and you're temporarily blinded by the light.  that's actually DOWN regulation, believe it or not, something to do with your synapses being all jolted out of their regular level of bored baseline existence,which is actually UP regulation.  i would assume therefore, ironically, that most of us exist completely in a state of UP regulation and how terribly upsetting and mortifying is that, as wrong as it sounds????  if the alarm clock going off at 6:57 every weekday isn't down regulation, and having a ton of mindblowing sex (with someone you love!), eating chocolate and receiving just accolades isn't up, well then...i just don't know about these apothecaries.

don't get me wrong, i'm all for being gainfully employed most days and what not, but the fact of the matter is, in the end, we're all going to go down the same, whether we spent the last 80 years beating it to the hard-core grind, or smelling dandelions, naked.

it's hard for me to wrap my head around that.

i tried to see if i could find a photo of nirvana on google images, being that that must be what a constant state of down regulation is like, but this is the best i could come up with: