a couple of weeks ago, i spent a quiet afternoon at the beach. there was no one around, and having come unprepared, i spent my time lying on a couple of warm, sun-kissed (yup, i did just say that) boulders. i was pretty depressed, actually, so i literally just lay there letting my thoughts drain out of my head and body, down the sand, and into the sea. i imagine some helpful seagull came along later, swooped them up and dashed them over and over again against the rocks, bashing their nasty little useless bad thought brains out.
i had gone out east for the weekend with someone i loved, but in whose presence i feel pretty much nothing - nothing - but anxiety, fear and perpetual dissatisfaction. there was a pretty face, a pretty house, a pretty car, and pretty much nothing - nothing - else. woe was me, really, whoa, with my hands empty of everything but the sand running through my fingers on that gorgeous, sunny day.
when i finally got up to head back to the pretty car, i followed a really pretty, colorful path made by the tide of all these beautiful, shiny shells and stones; it was truly hypnotizing. i felt like hansel and gretel, following the path of stones back to the safety of home and i was almost overwhelmed by this burgeoning belief i have that the Universe really does take care of you. it was truly uplifting, and i was starting to feel better: the Answers would surely, shortly be revealed.
i followed the stones back to the car, got in, sat down, and looked out to meditate over the water one more time before i left, and this is what i saw:
if that's not a message from the Universe, i don't know what is.
i had gone out east for the weekend with someone i loved, but in whose presence i feel pretty much nothing - nothing - but anxiety, fear and perpetual dissatisfaction. there was a pretty face, a pretty house, a pretty car, and pretty much nothing - nothing - else. woe was me, really, whoa, with my hands empty of everything but the sand running through my fingers on that gorgeous, sunny day.
when i finally got up to head back to the pretty car, i followed a really pretty, colorful path made by the tide of all these beautiful, shiny shells and stones; it was truly hypnotizing. i felt like hansel and gretel, following the path of stones back to the safety of home and i was almost overwhelmed by this burgeoning belief i have that the Universe really does take care of you. it was truly uplifting, and i was starting to feel better: the Answers would surely, shortly be revealed.
i followed the stones back to the car, got in, sat down, and looked out to meditate over the water one more time before i left, and this is what i saw:
if that's not a message from the Universe, i don't know what is.
